I'm panicking about my last week of work and trying to wrap everything up in time. I'm panicking about having to run around after 2 boys. I'm panicking about the lack of sleep I will have to endure once again.
And I'm panicking about labour.
I did not enjoy labour. It was hard work and it hurt, alot. And I am not someone who is good with pain. All those people who say you forget about all that afterwards? Well I remember it all!
Even after all this time I still get jealous when I hear other women talk about how magical their experience was because I just didn't feel it. Yes, of course, once Bambino arrived it was wonderful but then I still had to "deliver" the placenta and get 9 stitches. Again, not fun.
But I did meet this beautiful little boy at the end of it all...wasn't he a beautiful baby? :)
Of course, all this being said, I did it the first time successfully so I know that I can do it again. And I know that it is well worth it...I can't wait to meet my belly baby in person!
My choices remain the same-no drugs with the exception of Fentanyl-which I swear did nothing but hubby swears it did-guess I don't remember every detail of labour after all :) I'm also going to attempt to put off induction as long as possible. I'd prefer my little man arrive on his own terms rather than insisting he come when we decide. That being said though, they induced me 3 times with bambino before he showed up so I guess even with induction my boys won't be forced into anything they aren't ready for :)
Actually, I already feel better just writing this out-maybe this blogging thing really can be therapeutic!
I leave you with this picture of bambino and I about 12 hours after he arrived-look at that tired mama! So exhausted, but yet so proud.
Guess I really can't wait to do it all over again!
I had, by all accounts, a picture perfect labour the second time. It was about 2 1/2 hours of discomfort, and my son was born 45 minutes after we arrived at the hospital, with 20 minutes of pushing. I didn't tear. He was healthy. I was healthy.
ReplyDeleteI'm not saying this to brag. I'm telling you because even with that birth experience, I didn't like it. Giving birth is not my idea of a good time. I'd do it again in a heartbeat, because in the grand scheme of things it's very short-lived relative to the baby you deliver. But I wouldn't look forward to it.
I felt guilty about it for a long time. Like I was supposed to feel empowered or something. And then I got over that and accepted that I don't have to feel any way. There's no right or wrong here.
Second labours are usually shorter and easier - mine was. I bet yours will be, too. And either way, it really is worth it to have a new baby. For me, anyway. :)
I agree with the above. I couldn't imagine labor being a "good thing". But it is the means to the end.
ReplyDeleteAnd while your choice for no drugs is fine, given at appropriate times it can make a huge difference and quite frankly, they were invented for a reason. You might find if your having a very hard time again that a little drug to take the edge off could actually make your labor the picture perfect thing you want it to be.
You don't need to be totally doped up, but if all your body is doing is screaming pain pain pain, it defeats you from doing what you're there for.
You'll be fine.
you can do it momma - you're going to be great!
ReplyDeleteamber :)